I grew up on an internet that does not exist anymore and I have never really left it. Most of what I get asked splits into two piles: where the clothes come from, and whether the leaks are real. Both are answered below. Neither answer is a sales pitch.
quick facts
- Sleep scheduleFake. I am awake at 4am and asleep at noon.
- Coffee orderIced vanilla latte, extra shot, in a cup that does not match anything.
- Comfort filmJennifer's Body. It was right and everyone was wrong.
- Favourite era1999 to about 2004, aesthetically and spiritually.
- Hidden talentI can date any photo to within two years by the graphic design alone.
- Pet situationOne cat with a rhinestone collar she resents.
- Biggest fearA resale listing selling out while I am asleep.
- WeaknessAnything with a butterfly on it. Anything.
- Worst habitBuying the same babytee in six colours and wearing two.
- Karaoke songToxic. Not negotiable, not up for discussion.
- Cannot standPeople calling everything from before 2010 'vintage'.
the leaks question
Are the alexalizzz leaks real?
Not in the sense the word implies. Nothing was taken from me. Every file circulating as alexalizzz leaks was published by me, to people who paid for it, then screen-recorded and reposted somewhere else. That is resale, and whoever sells it had nothing to do with making it.
Why does the phrase rank if the folders are empty?
Aggregators generate a page for a creator name automatically, whether or not they hold anything. A page existing proves somebody wrote a page. It does not prove there is a folder behind it.
How old is that material?
Old, structurally. A file has to be posted, bought, captured and redistributed before it lands on an aggregator, and that chain takes months. What gets sold as new has usually been re-encoded past the point of looking like the original.
Are those free folder sites safe?
No. Almost none host anything. You get a survey, a sign-up, or a download requesting permissions no image gallery needs. The gallery is the bait; your card details or your inbox is the product.
Is some of it not even you?
A good amount, yes. Galleries get padded with whoever looks roughly similar, so a real share of what circulates under my name is somebody else entirely.
How do I know a page is actually mine?
Everything I run is one click from this page. If you found it elsewhere and it is not linked here, it is not mine, however convincing it looks.
Do you sell through Telegram or Discord?
No. No channel, no reseller, no payments through DMs, ever. Anyone doing that using my name is not me.
What should I do if I find a repost?
Nothing is required of you. Report it if you feel like it. Mostly: do not pay for it. Paying is the only thing keeping those sites running.
y2k, practically
Where do you actually find the clothes?
Resale, almost entirely, with saved searches running constantly. The trick is searching misspellings and brand names nobody lists correctly. Half of what I own came from a listing with two photos and no description.
Is any of it real vintage?
Some. A lot of what people call Y2K now is reproduction, and that is fine. The reproductions fit better and survive washing. I care more about the silhouette than the year on the label.
How do you stop rhinestones falling off?
They will regardless, so buy a tube of the right glue at the same time as the garment. Wash inside out, cold, in a mesh bag, and never put anything stoned in a dryer.
What is the one piece to start with?
A good pair of low-rise bootcuts. Everything else in the aesthetic is built on that line, and a plain tee you already own will suddenly look correct.
Do you edit photos to look old?
A little grain and the right lens, nothing more. Overdoing the filter is what makes it read as a costume rather than an outfit.
favourites
- Music
- Britney, t.A.T.u., Crystal Castles, Kero Kero Bonito, 100 gecs, Sky Ferreira
- Films
- Jennifer's Body, The Craft, Josie and the Pussycats, Ghost World, Hackers
- Games
- The Sims 2, Neopets nostalgia, Stardew when I need to calm down
- Food
- Blue raspberry anything, cold pizza, gas station slushies
- Drink
- Iced coffee until dark, then something unnaturally pink
- Scent
- Vanilla, hairspray, and the inside of a mall in 2003
a day in my life
I wake up late and spend the first hour scrolling archives of websites that shut down in 2008. This is research if you ask me and a problem if you ask anyone else.
The middle of the day is the unglamorous half — editing, replying, planning shoots, and hunting resale sites for one specific rhinestone thing I saw once and cannot stop thinking about.
Shooting happens late because the lighting is mine to control and because I am simply a better person after dark. Then I am up until four in a Discord call with people in three time zones.
ask me anything
Completely anonymous — no name, no email, nothing. I read all of them and answer the good ones here.